Illusions

paulmaccaron:

→ 15/50 photos of Paul McCartney.

I dig.

"And when my mind is wandering
There I will go
And it really doesn’t matter if I’m wrong I’m right
Where I belong I’m right
Where I belong."

Fixing A Hole

(Source: cyansea, via stalkitloveit)

"But alone is alone, not alive."

Company

"Honey Pie, you are driving me crazy
I’m in love but I’m lazy
Won’t you please come home?"

Honey Pie - The Beatles

Life Lately.

I’m officially in living-situation limbo. Our lease at Tricor expired on Thursday, and after packing up the entire house and splitting all of our belongings between cars, storage spaces, and various other apartments, we had a final night of pure relaxation in the empty apartment. The apartment that we called home and that was home in every meaning of the word. My year at Tricor living with my best friends, partying with my closest friends, and enjoying a town that means the world to me has taught me more about myself than I ever knew I’d come to learn. I feel more sure, more comfortable, clearer, smarter, more organized, more mature, happier, sillier, and just more stable. I loved (almost) everything about this year.

And now here I sit, in little ole’ Spencertown in Co. County. Here I am, dealing with an old bedroom, old friends, and my parents. And as soon as I get used to this semi-permanent life it’ll be uprooted again when I move to Potsdam for the summer for my internship. As excited as I am for this new learning experience and the wonderful things I’m sure I’ll learn/do, I’m finding myself really anxious with the lack of information/details I have and know about this summer. I need my boss to email me so I can start to plan -something that makes me more comfortable.

On top of this all, I’m still figuring out how to deal with everything that’s going on with my mom. It’s really hard and really terrifying and yet I still have this sense that not only will everything be ok, but we are going to be stronger as a family and as individuals. I can already tell that my mom and I (since we’re basically the same exact person) are on the same page, and we’re both just ready to just celebrate everything that living as a human being has to offer -all the small things, good things, bad things, beautiful and wonderful things. For these small lessons I’m learning, I’m grateful for having to go through this.

Finally, I’m dealing with myself. It’s so interesting how a person changes depending on their environment. I sit back sometimes and realize just how animalistic we really are. Our survival instincts, although buried deep by modern conveniences, really are as sharp and intuitive as they ever were. When I’m in New Paltz, I am a very different version of myself. When I’m in Chatham, I’m also different. I’m sure when I go to Potsdam at the end of June I’ll even be different there. While I’ve got this month to myself, I’m going to use it to examine the different parts of who I am, and maybe try to push aside or work through the things I don’t like, and polish up and focus the things I do like. It feels good to do a little work on the self every now and then. Of course, there’s always the subject of being “alone.” I am alone, in the fact that I’m not currently “with” someone, and I’ve also been thinking alot about that lately. I think my brain and my emotions are trying to figure out what I’m looking for and why I’ve been feeling lonely. What is it that I’m not getting from myself or my closest friends that I could only get from a significant other?

Maybe I’ll figure these things out, or maybe they’ll just work themselves out.

It’s the magic of summertime. I’m soaking it all in.

casemariepellegri:

I finally saw The Help last night and I’m completely in love.

<3

It’s only taken me all semester

to figure out that if I actually go to the quiet study rooms in the library, I’ll actually do work. Too bad it’s too late. But I got the last assignment of the year/semester done!

First.

First Mother’s Day celebrating the life of a wonderful woman who will need a lot of Mother’s Day-like support from here on out. It’s a tough road ahead.

I get by with a little help from my friends

mmmhmm

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